Personal Conflict
Personal Conflict:
In the process of exploring what I could embrace, reject, challenge, and practice in my work I realised I was contradicting myself because of my views on how there should be equality and acceptance within the values surrounding the body.
I find myself able to carry out this concept when it comes to other people however it is something I struggle to do for myself and my own body.
The reasons for this could be; Self-confidence, comparison to others, technique, my body's abilities, shape and size, and other reasons that could be more mental related.
Being able to acknowledge this is quite a big step for me because my way of working complies of me choreographing what I think will look best on the dancers, which is a very valid value and one that I have gained from Forsythe however when it means that I am belittling myself and my abilities as a contemporary dancer it is not supporting me.
I need to find a way to be oka with how the choreography might work on me, how my take on it would bring about something different because of not having the longest lines, turn out or best-pointed feet but it could show how my thoughts are still the same, my choreographic mind has the intention just my body can create it in a different way to how I envision it on dancers.
I have decided to upload videos of my improvisation, choreographing and tasks that I would not have initially done but through the process and seeing how I was contradicting myself I feel it is important to be involved and show how these values I am researching have effected me and my thought process behind my choreography and as a contemporary dancer.
In the process of exploring what I could embrace, reject, challenge, and practice in my work I realised I was contradicting myself because of my views on how there should be equality and acceptance within the values surrounding the body.
I find myself able to carry out this concept when it comes to other people however it is something I struggle to do for myself and my own body.
The reasons for this could be; Self-confidence, comparison to others, technique, my body's abilities, shape and size, and other reasons that could be more mental related.
Being able to acknowledge this is quite a big step for me because my way of working complies of me choreographing what I think will look best on the dancers, which is a very valid value and one that I have gained from Forsythe however when it means that I am belittling myself and my abilities as a contemporary dancer it is not supporting me.
I need to find a way to be oka with how the choreography might work on me, how my take on it would bring about something different because of not having the longest lines, turn out or best-pointed feet but it could show how my thoughts are still the same, my choreographic mind has the intention just my body can create it in a different way to how I envision it on dancers.
I have decided to upload videos of my improvisation, choreographing and tasks that I would not have initially done but through the process and seeing how I was contradicting myself I feel it is important to be involved and show how these values I am researching have effected me and my thought process behind my choreography and as a contemporary dancer.
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